God is good and does good. He uses all of life to recreate us and bring joy by making us more like him. Everyone told me that motherhood reveals sin like nothing else and I have seen this already in Alexander's 8 short weeks of life. My pride has been astounding-how glorious that the faithful One loves me enough to show me and change me. For some reason I thought I was going to be "super mom." Other people's struggles wouldn't be mine! I would be able to breastfeed, get up in the night without complaining, give of myself unselfishly around the clock--all while cooking dinners, keeping up the house, and loving my husband well.
In a Sandra McCraken song she sings, "Do you think he never reproves me? What a false friend he would be! If he never, never told me of the sin which he must see!" How true! I believe that God loves me too much to let me believe I don't need him and to let me carry on in my pride. He is sovereign over all things and I'm thankful that breastfeeding was a nightmare, I couldn't make it on my own feeding him at night, and I would hand the baby to Justin when he got home and run to take a bath for some alone time. Thank God that he is a friend of sinners! How I grieved over my failures before seeing the mercy, love, grace, joy, and freedom that God gives those who humble themselves before the cross. My little baby is such a gift. I love him more and more everyday. I'm so thankful for the people around me who love him too. I'm so thankful that "love came down to earth." May I remember this Easter how desperately I need him and how little I can do on my own.
“When Love Came Down to Earth”
Words & music by Stuart Townend
When Love came down to earth and made His home with man
The hopeless found a hope, the sinner found a friend
Not to the powerful, but to the poor He came
And humble, hungry hearts were satisfied in Him
What joy, what peace has come to us
What hope, what help, what love
When every unclean thought and every sinful deed
Was scourged upon his back and hammered through his feet
The Innocent is cursed, the guilty are released
The punishment of God on God has brought me peace
Come lay your heavy load down at the Master’s feet
Your shame will be removed, your joy will be complete
Come crucify your pride and enter as a child
For those who bow down low He’ll lift up to His side
3 comments:
Lisa that is one beeeee uuuu teee ful smile! enjoy and rest! as much as you can! =)
LOVE the pictures Lucie! you took some great ones! i saw your picasa album and loved it:) thanks for sharing your struggles and God's grace in motherhood- it's an encouragement to everyone who is human! can't wait to come back and visit
thanks for your honesty Lis. It was encouraging to me to hear your struggles and how God redeems them! Alexander is so blessed to have such an amazing mom! :)
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